I’ve been praying for a miracle.
I’ve had a nagging health issue for nearly 20 years now. In the spirit of Paul with his thorn in the side, I won’t name it. But it’s a drag. And as the years have progressed, it’s gotten draggier.
I’ve done plenty of things to fix it–medicine, procedures, lifestyle changes–but here it remains. It typically comes and goes, but lately it’s been hanging around a LOT. And at this point, the next steps to maybe fix it are pretty scary. So, I’m trying to live with it. Rather, I’m living with it and trying not to whine.
But first, I prayed for miraculous healing. I believe wholeheartedly in miracles. I’ve seen them and heard about them and read about them. And yes, I’ve even experienced them. Miracles really do happen–no doubt. So why not ask for this? “You do not have because you do not ask.” (James 4:2)
I prayed. I invited others to pray with me. And for nearly six weeks I had relief. The symptoms resolved. People (including my doctor) asked what I did, and I told them prayer and B vitamins. And I dared hope I had my miracle.
Until the symptoms returned. This wasn’t miraculous healing; it was a temporary reprieve.
And so, I’m living with it and trying not to whine. (While still praying for a miracle.)
But here’s the thing. I know God’s in the business of miracles whether he does this one or not. And I trust that if he doesn’t do it, then, somehow, someway, it’s for my good. “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)
I love God. I’ve been called according to his purpose. I hate this struggle and long for it to go away. I alternate between trusting this, too, is for my good and shaking my fist at my Father who loves me but won’t pull out this thorn.
I don’t know who you are, reading all the way to the end of this–what–confession? But if you, too, are struggling I want you to know God loves you, miracle or no miracle.
I believe in him with my whole heart. He’s already done so much more for me than I could ever deserve. He chose me, rescued me, and gave me the promise of life everlasting with HIM (where I will be in perfect health). That’s one miracle that’s mine and yours already–all we have to do is accept it.
And even on the days when this weak, selfish, human body of mine cries out that it’s not enough, I know that it is.
I know that it’s more than enough.
prayers and good wishes for healing, comfort and lots of care
Thank you, Ellie. Miss you!
Hey Sarah I love you and miss you and pray for you. I as you know am the recipient of a health related miracle and am thankful every day. Keep holding the Father’s hand and let me know when you are headed my way. Always love to see you
Yes–your healing is one of the rocks I hold on to!
Oh Lord, hear our prayers in your perfect will.
Yes, His will IS perfect.
Thank you for sharing. I live with an annoying health issue, actually more than one, so I understand. Praying with you.
I love that we can pray together even though we’re apart! Thank you.
Amen, Sarah! Thank you for sharing your story; it is very inspirational and hope-giving. I pray God provides you with the miracle of healing. I hope you and yours have a blessed Christmas and a wonderful new year.
You’re welcome and thank YOU!
Oh. Sarah, I know exactly how you feel! Such a difficult season, waking in pain and fussing at God. And yet knowing He will continue to give me strength. My life is not what I want it to feel like it look like, but He is faithful and gives me little nuggets every day. Praying for you, my dear.
Thank you.
We can pray for each other!
Thank you for sharing, Sarah, and I will be praying for you!
SOOOO appreciated! Thank you.
I love you my good friend. BU
Oh Bill! Wish I could hug your neck. Love you, too.
My story of a denied miracle concerns my hearing. I’d been gradually losing it most of my life when finally I got a hearing aid. My life was fine but after many signs that God was going to heal me, I went forward in a crusade. I fell beach but I felt nothing. My head said what if you are opening your soul to something else? I said “no” and was not healed. I cried for long after wondering if I’d rejected God (the enemy jumped on that worry) even now I wish I’d said His name instead of no. Years later I was healed medically via implant. But it took me a long time not to regret that “no.”
Oh Pamela–thank you for sharing that. The enemy is SO sneaky.
I am sorry Sweet Pea that you are having to deal with your pain. Some days it makes you crazy! I know! 24/7 pain and waiting on Dr to get me a surgeon to go inside my abdomen and find out what is wrapped around the bottom 6” of my colon and squeezing it almost shut. So things coming out are no wider than my pinky finger and lots of work to get it out. So surgeon will have to go inside and see what it is. Maybe just scar tissue so we will see. Take care dear friend and tell Jim you need lots of extra hugs and kisses which I know he already gives to you! Xoxo
Oh no! Talk about misery! I’ll be praying for you as well. Hope you get it resolved SOON! And you tell Jimmy the same for you. xoxoxoxoxo
I really feel for you. I know to well what you are going thru. I am a true believer in miracles they happen everyday. I do hope and pray that your miracle comes your way sooner than later.
When mine gets so bad that I can’t function right I tell myself all day long that it can always get worse. I know it doesn’t help my pain but it seems to help my mind set.
Thank you, Becky! And we find joy in things like reconnecting with family–right?!?
Thanks for sharing Sarah. I have had this scary thing of lung cancer now for almost 2 years
but thank goodness no pain. Radiation has kept it stable. But I have a lot of hear aches about my dear oldest granddaughter, mother of 2 beautiful ones and a great teacher, who just found out she has a spot in her breast I have been in almost constant prayer since
finding out about it yesterday.
So as well as praying for her I’m praying for you, my cousin.
Fondly and with much love, Peggy
Amen!!
I will be praying for you, Sarah. God has a plan for all of us. Sometimes it takes a while to come around. He loves us so much and does give us Grace when we don’t deserve it. Please keep the faith and don’t ever give up. ❤️❤️
I won’t!
Beautifully expressed!
Thank you! And I know you know how tough healing can be.
I’m so sorry. Thinking all the very best of miracles for you.
(PS: I can relate.)
Thank you–I know you can!
Awwww..Sarah~You’re in my prayers.
Even thru seeing miracles in my own family..it feels SO different when it’s as personal as yourself. Like my Hubby, with Dementia says we often get too focused on what “we” want from God forgetting that it’s in HIS hands~He ALWAYS sees us thru the things he has for us to do..the reason is not always apparent..yet we may learn from that experience or even help someone else in the process.
Stay in the Scriptures, continue to pray & TRUST in Him ALWAYS. Which I
KNOW you do..”This too shall pass”
which I shared w/Larry several times.
I still see that Big Smile!!
Thank you Teresa. You’ve been such a friend and consolation in difficult times. I’m so grateful God sent us YOU!
Sarah, I’m so sorry. Our home can relate in so many ways regarding health issues. My heart is with you and I’m praying for you.
Thank you, Shelli. Your heart is the BEST.
Read a reminder today that our prayers are kept in golden bowls before the altar of God. Rev 6.
I recently lost my faith for 5 minutes! God was there despite it all and showed me how He was still caring for me throughout the difficulty. He cares for you and will strengthen you. Blessings.
What a lovely encouragement YOU are to ME! Thank you.
The miracle of trusting despite disappointing circumstances is so evident in your words.
That’s my hope!
Oh Sweet Sarah,
Thank you for sharing your heart, your pain, your struggle, and your trust and hope. 38 years ago I was praying for a miracle, it was for my daughter. 27 years ago God answered that prayer, but not in the way I had envisioned. It was scary(still is sometimes) and painful and I did a lot of whining. C.S. Lewis said that the pain is part of the joy. Sometimes it’s hard to see that. I am joining you in your prayer for a miracle because He does give them. But will also pray that our gracious LORD will renew a right spirit in you to rest in Him alone. You are so very precious.
The Problem of Pain is SUCH a good book. You guys are an inspiration to me.
Sarah, thank you so much for sharing your story. I really needed to read this. I can relate in SO many ways! I’ve been battling with an illness for almost twenty years too, and I don’t think I’ve missed a day of praying for healing and deliverance that’s yet to come, but I’m still not giving up because I know miracles are real. I’ll be praying for your healing too!
Love and Prayers,
Regina
A friend recently described it as “patient endurance.” Thank you for your prayers–I’ll be praying for you as well!