I’m closer to the half-century mark than I used to be.
Which, I suppose, means I am undeniably a grown up whether I want to be or not.
But still . . . there are days when I just want my momma.
I recently spent several days at home in West Virginia. I wish it were just because I so love being there, but there was more to it than that. Mom recently had surgery and Dad was due to see his neurologist to monitor his Parkinson’s Disease.
They aren’t getting any younger, either.
So many of my friends are in the same position–parenting their parents in some form or fashion. Which is hard not only logistically, but also emotionally. For all those times I felt like they were smothering me with their rules, love, affection, and support–that’s exactly what I crave now.
And the funny thing is . . . there were moments on this last trip when that’s exactly what I got.
Sunday evening I sat in the floor at my mother’s feet chatting and halfway watching football while she fiddled with my hair. If you aren’t aware, having your hair fiddled with is one of life’s great pleasures. And it’s something my mom used to do often when I was younger. Sometimes she was brushing or braiding my hair, but there was also plenty of soothing, affectionate fiddling. And for that hour or so, I was a child again, simply being soothed by my momma.
Then, just before I left to drive home, my Dad did something wonderful. His health and really his whole way of life is very much in limbo as we try to keep Parkinson’s at bay. He actually seems pretty stable right now, but we both know there are decisions to be made and tough choices likely up ahead.
As I was saying goodbye, he wrapped me in his arms and said, “I don’t know how, but this will all work out.”
It was exactly what I needed to hear from the man who for so much of my life, seemed to have all the answers. And here’s the best part–I’m pretty sure he’s right.